It’s interesting how we’re always waiting for something. Waiting around for this week to end, for the weekend to begin, for your next big event, for a shift to come to a closure after a long day, etc. Weirdly though as soon as that thing we were waiting on so graciously for finally comes & goes it leaves no evident trace because we’re already stuck on the next thing we’re “looking forward to”, an endless cycle if you will.
I’m looking forward to a Santa Barbara day-trip I planned with two friends of mine I’ve mentioned here on this blog before. Just a few days ago I was looking forward to a day in Los Angeles that an out-of-town friend and I had planned, that day came and went and now I’m on to the next thing. Before that even, the only thing on my mind was my stepmom’s birthday party and how it would turn out since on this side of the family birthday parties n such are taken more than seriously each year, which just results in more stress-per-expectation but I’m getting off topic here, I digress.
I guess what I’m trying to get across within this 30-minute time-span I have whilst writing this on my lunch is to stop waiting, I feel like if I let it happen I’ll probably spend my whole life waiting for something, then when that “something” finally comes around it’ll wither into another nothing within the blink of an eye.
Four years ago (wow 2018 was four years ago already!?) I spoke about relishing in the moment often and my crusade on learning the in’s n out’s of simply being “present”, can’t say I’ve been succeeding in this “moment-ting” as of late though, I’ve just had so much on my mind lately and to say that things have started to pile up and get a little overwhelming would probably be an understatement. I think my problem with remaining present is that I don’t always wanna be in the exact moment I’m in.
Times Up
whosrushi 
Have you ever considered that waiting and being, while not mutually exclusive, have an important distinction?
How can we enjoy our lives if we’re preoccupied with the past or the future? And, under the influence of that preoccupation, what kind of future are we actually left with the energies and materials to create?
So, I agree.
Stop waiting. Start being; start becoming. This doesn’t mean abandoning all planning in your life, but it DOES change the nature of that planning. Reframing “what will happen in the future” as “how can I make my future happen?”
This isn’t an easy thing — it’s one that I believe most people struggle with at some point in their lives. But it is a necessary conversation to have with yourself, and, more importantly, one you’re already having. Part of it, too, is finding what your joy actually looks like: this will often involve its own intimate and complex process of disillusionment with what isn’t working.
Maybe I’m preaching to the choir here.
dog speed.
-zd
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The choir hears you indeed, what an intriguing take on waiting I appreciate the insight especially calling out on reframing the phrase to “How can I make this my future”. One really just has to annihilate any possibility of failure and the rest is being present.
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