Personas

At times I feel like a whole different person from the Rushi that last wrote on here back in April, and then I realize that I kinda am. In all honesty, I'm sure I change a fair amount as a person in between each of my posts considering how separated they are, six years later,...

Waiting For Something

It’s interesting how we’re always waiting for something. Waiting around for this week to end, for the weekend to begin, for your next big event, for a shift to come to a closure after a long day, etc. Weirdly though as soon as that thing we were waiting on so graciously for finally comes &...

Satisfaction

I remember when I was little all I used to want was a "spinny chair", now I have a desk chair conveniently in my room next to my bed. I remember back when I first started driving all I wanted was a car newer than the year 2000, now I have an 07' and a...

Where’sRushi

From falling flat on my good arm against some metal steps to gulibly falling for an over-the-phone scam, I'd say my thursday this time around has been nothing but entertaining to say the least. How is losing $170 entertaining you may be asking? Well, it's not. That's just how I've been treating problems as of...

A Contradiction

I find it insane how residing in the moment is the only way to shield one's self from the self-destructive thoughts the mind can feed us. Not to say that existing in this very moment is a complex challenge, it's actually an easy act just turning off your mind, but those moments where I slip...

Past, Death, & Reality

Honestly the only thing fully holding me back from becoming “one with the moment” and believing that the past truly does not exist (anymore) is the reality of death. I refuse to accept that my friends just don’t exist anymore due to them being apart of the past. Apparently the past is nothing more than...

Nevada

My stay in Nevada was such a different time compared to now, different friends, different rules, different environment, and just a different life as a whole. As much as I dreaded the mental aspects of my life out there in the state of Nevada I appreciate the experiences I had, the experience of living in...

Life Events, And Where I’ve Been

Its kinda crazy how drastically life can change in an instant, 365 days to be exact. I’m a whole different person living a whole different life than I was three hundred sixty-five days ago, Its kinda mind-boggling how quick it all happens. This past year 19′ has been a time, that’s forsure. I’ve learned plenty...

On the Road to Riches

My head's been stuck on loop regarding a conversation that occurred between a few friends and I the other day. Thinking back at it now, it wasn't even really a "conversation," more of a rant on A's part and the rest of us were just listening and chiming in every now&then to elaborate on his...

Duct Days

The Duct Days are over Idk what it is, but a certain Hangout spot in my city has been on my mind lately. Could be the fact that I haven't been there in so long, such a hiatus from a well known place can draw in memories. Or it could be because of the constant...