Moving on/Moving out

The feelings that I carry for this house & everyone in it are flowing through me all at once, and soon I doubt I'll be able to hold back the weight I carry for this place. Okay, let me take a step back. My current place of living will soon be coming to an end...

Personas

At times I feel like a whole different person from the Rushi that last wrote on here back in April, and then I realize that I kinda am. In all honesty, I'm sure I change a fair amount as a person in between each of my posts considering how separated they are, six years later,...

Waiting For Something

It’s interesting how we’re always waiting for something. Waiting around for this week to end, for the weekend to begin, for your next big event, for a shift to come to a closure after a long day, etc. Weirdly though as soon as that thing we were waiting on so graciously for finally comes &...

(Sept 25th, 2021)

Have you ever had the thought "This is really my life?" not in any sorta bad way or good even, just the simple vanilla thought. Well, I do from time to time, I think mainly because of the fact that I'm at that turning point in life where my teen years are finally behind me, forever....

Satisfaction

I remember when I was little all I used to want was a "spinny chair", now I have a desk chair conveniently in my room next to my bed. I remember back when I first started driving all I wanted was a car newer than the year 2000, now I have an 07' and a...

Where’sRushi

From falling flat on my good arm against some metal steps to gulibly falling for an over-the-phone scam, I'd say my thursday this time around has been nothing but entertaining to say the least. How is losing $170 entertaining you may be asking? Well, it's not. That's just how I've been treating problems as of...

A Contradiction

I find it insane how residing in the moment is the only way to shield one's self from the self-destructive thoughts the mind can feed us. Not to say that existing in this very moment is a complex challenge, it's actually an easy act just turning off your mind, but those moments where I slip...

Past, Death, & Reality

Honestly the only thing fully holding me back from becoming “one with the moment” and believing that the past truly does not exist (anymore) is the reality of death. I refuse to accept that my friends just don’t exist anymore due to them being apart of the past. Apparently the past is nothing more than...

Still Getting There

How is it that all of my past few days (weeks) have felt so painfully stagnant yet I feel that so much in my life is drastically changing. So much has happened since 2017, as I'm sure has for every conscious being on this moving rock, change is inevitable and constant, I really appreciate the...

Life Events, And Where I’ve Been

Its kinda crazy how drastically life can change in an instant, 365 days to be exact. I’m a whole different person living a whole different life than I was three hundred sixty-five days ago, Its kinda mind-boggling how quick it all happens. This past year 19′ has been a time, that’s forsure. I’ve learned plenty...